I wish I could help the friends and people I know who could use help right now, but I am too exhausted to watch out for people who are old enough and smart enough to watch out for themselves. 

This is a reassurance to myself that I need to live my life and take care of me before I can look out for you guys. I am emotionally drained from my own thoughts. Someone please get me out of this place so I can have a day that I don’t feel guilty about standing aside while I watch people I care about bury themselves into a metaphorical hole!